因为你让生命感动

Sunday, August 31, 2008

i really hate it when we're in this mood and arguing about silly things that we shouldn't even be arguing about since we can't even lay a claim on anything or anyone for that matter. and just when i thought that we finally settled things and that it would be alright again, we piss each other off yet another time and then choose to gloss over the whole matter because it's weird and funny to add this layer to the already very complicated and head-spinning situation right now. i hate it when i have to watch my words, you know, and you're not helping things either. uurrrrggghhhh. can life get anymore complicated than this? can i do a repeat of yesterday and not speak to you all over again? please please please? ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

{♥} wash away the miles between us

at 12:37 am

Thursday, August 21, 2008

i never thought this day would come and that it would engulf me with such utter heart-wrenching sadness.

19th august 2008. the day i left the island i've come to call home, the day i left a part of my heart with each and every single person i hugged and said goodbye to, the day i realised what 家唯独在你身旁 really means.

with each letter and card i had to write, my heart broke a little more and the tears gathered a little more force. and then when i had to write the final 3 letters, i really couldn't hold back any longer and it was the hardest and saddest 3 letters i had to write.

i miss staying at margaret street, making daddy, chee ming and desmond stay up just so we could chat a little while longer, shopping at coles, woolies, going for church and lunch, going for lifegroup and ocf, seeing the ocf people, having lunch with jeremy and elvine at fish bar, playing captain's ball, badminton, shopping in the city with yinyin, having gatherings at my place.....

i miss every single one of you and whenever i see you guys online or read the posts you leave on my wall, i cannot help but hide in the room and cry. the day at the airport was just indescribably emotional for all of us and i didn't want to let go after every hug because it was the very last one i would get from you.

i don't even know what i'm saying anymore but i guess i know what it really means now to have an ache in your heart. a permanent one at that. i love you guys so much. really.

地面灯火像是星光闪耀
什么地方等着我降落停靠
走过一扇大门一座桥
什么笑容值得我凝住心跳
往前跑的人都需要摆脱遗憾的药
回到教堂祈祷那一秒

爱是三万里程的孤单
闪着等待的泪光眺望可能的远方

爱是再远都在你身旁
心疼了解的目光不流泪的机场
累计或多或少的伤或真或假的谎
只求不忘了我最真的模样最真的微笑

红灯闪烁停驻的街道
蓝天绿叶的熟悉不同面貌
一张床一个停靠
黑夜白昼颠倒
谁能解读脸上的微笑

短暂的来回奔跑
不曾解开的背包
我参与的人生太潦草
快乐常在门外绕
太多陌生的夜晚让我困扰
若你能了解我会向你怀里靠

and just like what i always have on my msn and gtalk, 爱 really is 再远都在你身旁 and as hard as it is for me now to say goodbye to you and face the next phase of my life, i just want you guys to know that i love and miss you guys very very much and that you guys mean the world to me. 真的很爱很爱你们.

{♥} wash away the miles between us

at 6:15 pm